Silly silly little girl.
I got dressed into my night gown, brushed my teeth, applied my vanilla scented lotion and slid into bed with him. We snuggled at first, sneaking in a kiss here and there. The snuggling become more intense, and the kisses were no longer loving, they were full of lust.
"Abeech, min awal youm shftich wna mishtehech"
"Ya3goub, what do you think you are doing"
"I want you so bad, shofay"
"Ya3goub please la, maby" I managed to say in between my tears.
Silly, silly little girl.
He forced himself on me, he enjoyed himself while I cried.
I gave him my back and continued crying. Why did I tell him when we were alone, of course he thought I was asking for it. This is all my fault, 9a7 kalam Khalid ana '3beya, sa5eefa, mo fahma o ma7ad yabeny. I am going to be a whore, once I tell men im divorced they are going to expect me to open my legs wide for them.
I waited for him to fall asleep, and snuck out of his shalaih, I got dressed and headed back to Samars.
"What did he do?? Please tell me he didnt, Jema please 7beebty"
"He did, Samar he did"
"Please tell me you were safe? you are on the pill right?"
Silly, silly naive little girl.
3 days ago